—from my favorite (sorta spoilery, sorry) scene in The Fault in Our Stars
Or, as someone else said on Twitter:
My dad thought a good way for his kid to understand the Holocaust was to show her lots of super graphic, terrifying documentaries about concentration camps. Like when I was a young kid. As a not-so-funny result, I am on some level truly always thinking about what I’d do if I had to either run for my life OR find a way to cleverly hide out in my house, possibly for years on end.
It took me a long time to realize that was a pretty fucked up response to have internalized from what was probably an well-intentioned family history lesson.
Maybe it was Angela Chase on My So-Called Life back in 1994/95, actually, who helped me start to put it in perspective:
My point being: Whatever certain…finesse might have been lacking in the note Justin Bieber left after visiting the Anne Frank House — which it seems like he actually wanted to visit — I don’t think it does any of us any good to act like “never forget” means “never discuss except using this very specific approved set of responses.”
Pug doing judo. I’m obsessed with this well trained pug!
Hello all, as you now know, I am closing Twitter account @anhonestmess and starting a new era as @discotarantula.
Many people have asked me why this is, and I’ve given various answers, but I wanted to gather my thoughts in one place for my own sake as much as anyone’s.
The most straightforward answer is that when I want to do something new or try a new approach, I need a physical representation of that break. Every couple of months it seems I go out a buy a new notebook or new binder and new pens, set down with some new project that I hope to accomplish. I enjoy that feeling. I like opening up a new blank page and wondering how things will turn out this time, even knowing that there’s not really such a thing as a blank page.
You can stop reading here if you like because that captures everything that you need to know about the move, but if you’re interested, continue reading to understand exactly what I’m going to do differently with the new account.
These reasons are in order from least to most influential.
First, my avatar. People associate the bunny with anhonestmess, people love the bunny, people call me bunny. Before I got noticed, I was changing my av every couple of weeks, and I want to go back to that. It never felt right to keep the same av for me forever. But I also didn’t want to ignore that people saw me and that av as connected, so I wanted to be able to leave it up while still changing it (new account).
Second, my favstar. Similar to my av, I don’t dislike my favstar. In fact I quite like it. Hearing @gewqk’s take on it helped reveal to me that it’s pretty good imo. But at this point it’s fairly stagnant. With each passing week, it gets harder to influence it because of how most people use favstars to do their #ff’s and blow ups. So like my av, I want a change, but because I like it, I’m not interested in deleting it. I just want to start over.
Third, the social circle. I love what I’ve been doing with Twitter. I once described it as an international improv group (well, the comedy part), and I stand by that. I know that some people look down on hashtag humor or the memetic nature of certain jokes, but I think riffing can be fun and just as original as anything else. A lot of what I’ve done so far (especially in terms of gaining followers) has been about interaction and playing the games with everyone else.
I want to focus on my writing. To some people on Twitter, I know that sounds ridiculous, pompous, or both. But sometimes in my brain, I ask myself if what’s happened so far has more to do with what I have to say/how well I write or just me being a nice guy. If so and so would have blown me up if I hadn’t already RTd their whole favstar, if I hadn’t said that nice thing to them, if I hadn’t been there when they were sad. I’m not saying any of those are bad reasons; I just personally want to move away from them. I think that that and even just the basic mechanisms of Twitter can aggravate some of my emotional issues. I won’t go into them here because I don’t like to share that stuff unasked for, but if you’re interested, feel free to contact me privately because I love to share myself with others.
My account has very much lived up to my namesake in being an honest mess. I’ve been open with who I am and my feelings and every thought that stomps through my brain and what’s going on in my personal life. And like every other part of my account, I’ve loved that. But I want to try something new. I want to try writing a bit separate from the twitterness of twitter and seeing how I feel about it.
I won’t be checking my interactions tab only my mentions, and I’m gonna be taking a break from replying to any tweet (including @’s) for at least a little while to see how I feel about it. I’m going to try to let things percolate a little more before tweeting them to see if I like them more. I’m going to tweet a lot less.
I love the people on twitter, and I want to keep interacting with them, so I hope most will DM me or kik me or snapchat me or gchat me so that we can continue chatting. I just don’t want to do it on twitter for a bit. I hope this doesn’t alienate anyone that I care about. And it’s not permanent.
There’s a fair chance that I’ll hate this, and I’ll just head back to @anhonestmess in a few weeks out of frustration. But for now, I’m curious as to try living in a less response based environment and seeing how I feel about my writing.
So for 2k followers on Twitter, I’m going to record myself reading 20 tweets. It’s gonna be fun! I’m only partially choosing them myself. I need your input!
1) You can choose any tweet you want, yours, mine, someone else’s.
2) Submit as many as you want.
3) Try to keep in mind that I will be reading them so avoid visual puns, hashtag jokes (likely), pictures.
4) Here is what I sound like if that means anything to you! http://audioboo.fm/boos/1093201-test-tweet
5) Anything else as I think of it.
I’ll take everyone’s submissions and choose the 20 I think will be funniest or otherwise best to read, record them and put them on the internet for all to see!
Ok I think that’s all for now. More if I think of it.
“Your thoughts on the film, its genre, and American culture are complicated and intellectual. This depth — especially from a freshman — is a very good sign.
This makes it all the more disappointing that your prose is so awkward. You choose the wrong preposition, the wrong verb, the wrong phrase, the wrong punctuation too often.
Form & content are ineluctably linked. Sophisticated ideas call for sophisticated prose.” - Prof. Sarah Kozloff
One day my writing will be as good as my thought lol.
here is an alphabetical list of all my favorite movies so far, subject to change:
The 400 Blows
Assault on Precinct 13
Au Hasard Balthazar
The Bad News Bears
Ball of Fire
The Bird with the Crystal Plumage
Black Cat, White Cat
Dog Day Afternoon
The Earrings of Madame de…
Graveyard of Honor
Harlan County, U.S.A.
High and Low
The House Is Black
The Iron Giant
Josie and the Pussycats
The Lady Eve
Love Me Tonight
The Music Man
Nothing But a Man
Out of the Blue
Pat Garrett and Billy the Kid
The Science of Sleep
Shall We Dance?
Singin’ in the Rain
The Straight Story
Streets of Fire
They Shoot Horses, Don’t They?
A Thousand Clouds of Peace
Two for the Road
The Wind Will Carry Us
The Wizard of Oz
You Can Count on Me
The Young Girls of Rochefort